there are certain types of people who are almost defined by their insecurities. people who go to great lengths to get across to all people they encounter that they're shining beacons of perfection , even though they're just as miserable (or more) then you or me. so, I'm not talking about your typical insecure fat girl or bald guy. I'm talking about people who go out of their way to be something they simply aren't. here's some that come to mind:
The over buff/body builder types:
i walked past this guy on the street today who was enormous. 6'3'' and just a wall of muscle. he was wearing a super tight shirt and sun glasses and had this air of "bad to the bone" about him , but in the most contrived way possible. it got me thinking of lengths one must go to become that guy. working out is annoying and tedious. to be that guy, you basically have to dedicate your entire life to sculpting your body. one argument people make for this is "it's for me. i wanna look my best." i'd buy that except these guys look like fucking retards. the funny thing is, i assume a lot of these guys could also say they do it for the attention it gets from women. after all, what girl do you know doesn't love a 320 pound , orange skinned mongoloid who can't clap his hands cause his biceps might erupt. yeah. so with that not being a realistic driving force, i gotta think they do it for the the dumbest reason ever: to intimidate/garner respect from other men. these motherfuckers are so insecure they base their entire lives on looking abnormally strong. it's like a 50 year old man driving a ferrari multiplied by dick growing pills on the mathematical scales of insecure douche baggery.
models/actresses
my disdain for both these types is no secret. models are tall, skinny freaks of nature who rarely are actually attractive yet somehow got put on a pedestal of beauty they truly don't deserve. they're fawned over on a level no teenager should ever be and they are the object of affection to all rich men who are secretly gay. actresses are even worse though cause they have the whole "artisty" thing going for them. this somehow gives them a right to think they're anything more than a parrot with tits. they have opinions and are so self absorbed talking to one at length is basically like watching the E! network for a day straight and all the programming is dedicated to "this bitch!". (just a reminder, these are wildly sweeping generalizations, but i'd say I'm over 70% right here).
in both cases, actors/actresses and models are all people who live an extremely charmed life based on how they look. this leads them to a false sense of importance. so, on the surface, these people may seem "cooler" or "more important" then your average person. they seemingly have their shit together and are always step ahead. well, this may be true on some level but the irony is the crippling insecurity that truly runs these peoples lives. as outspoken and forthright most actors may seem, trust that they know what a farce they actually are. they wrestle with it on a daily basis. all artists do this but in the case of most actors, they're right. they are very likely the fraud they so desperately afraid of being.
in the case of models, they're whole life is based on how they look. staying grossly thin and not aging. that must be brutal. especially the way society turns on women who just happen to age appropriately. as snotty as most models are when you meet them, it's a guarantee that, underneath that, is a doe eyed lonely girl who just wants to be liked and eat from a troth of blintz's. there is a reason why both these types end up getting extensive plastic surgery and usually have crazy addictions as well as eating disorders. it's cause they're uncomfortable in their own skin. they hate themselves. which is cool cause it makes me feel a lot better when either are dickheads towards me. ahhhh.... thanks insecurity!
braggers and assholes
i've written about this before but whatever. assholes are the most obviously insecure people on the planet. they exist to project their self hate on to you. that's just how they operate. make you feel like shit so they can feel better. it's the most see through of all insecurities and the most rampant. braggers are very similar to assholes but instead of projecting their inner self hatred, they go another route. they feel by talking themselves up , it'll raise they're own value as a person. they are also usually liars. i have a "friend" who is the king of this. the second he gets a drink in him he starts talking about himself like he's the most important person on the planet. he sometimes lies but mostly just hyperbolizes everything. he name drops. everything. he's a piece of shit when he gets in that mode. but the thing is, people who are actually doing big things don't brag about it. in fact, i've found the most successful people to be pretty humble when it comes to the work they're actually doing. sure, some may veer into the self absorbed side of things but most are just quiet about it cause nothing needs to be said. the bragger talks a huge game but very likely weeps himself to sleep.
people who fuck anyone.
this is mostly about guys but i've met a few girls in this boat as well. i used to think that guys who would fuck any girl were just really horny and had a strong stomach. I'm willing to give guys in their teens and early 20's the pass on this too cause , at that age, you're trying to amass as much experience as you can. but, if you're over 25 and you are not the slightest bit discerning about who you have sex with, you're an insecure douche bag. it's stops being "A party foul" and starts being "a lonely person who hates himself and feels validated by waking up next to ANYTHING" foul. i have friends who will occasionally go well below their standards or who have fetishes that are bizarre that lead to sleeping with people most would deem unacceptable. but those are particular situations. dudes that go out with the "i must get laid at any costs" mentality are just pitiful cause , in most cases, they truly do get laid at a cost. weather it be dignity or festering cock boils. all I'm saying is have a little respect for yourself. i've never understood people who live without at least thinking of consequences, if not for just a moment. the reality of fucking anything that moves is rough. you most likely have to make out with this person. you will very likely be horrified when you see them naked. you have maintain an erection while kissing and having sex with said person and , worst of all, you most likely have to wake up next to them and realize what you've done. i would think that alone would put a damper on things. i know i've turned down questionable opportunities cause i feared the next morning.
it's ok to be insecure. as i said, we all are. but have a little self respect. have some shame. most of all, try to have some perspective and ability to see yourself as others do.
stop lifting weights so much.
don't think you're special at one moment when you're killing yourself inside.
don't be an asshole cause you're not happy with your self.
and don't fuck someone to fill a void. although, sex is kind of literally filling a void, isn't it? whatever. you know what i mean.
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